inahandbasket

Stepping out of the cab into the rain, I ask what he will do if he finds out one day that he has succeeded in being infected -- ending the fun of being a bug chaser. He stops, then says he might move on to being a gift giver: "If I know that he's negative and I'm fucking him, it sort of gets me off. I'm murdering him in a sense, killing him slowly, and that's sort of, as sick as it sounds, exciting to me."

He knows very well that it's suicide, He says as much. He has no problem with that. Yes, he's attracted to the idea, does that make him disturbed?

Consider sexual fetishes, the average mainstream person things that even those with mundane fetishes (face it, most people don't know about the really interesting ones) are "hopelessly disturbed." Heck, one of my female coworkers the other day was ranting to me about how disgusting lesbianism is, and how "people like that" squick her mightily.


Morality is all relative, and frankly I don't see this as a moral issue. I see it as an issue of a bunch of really fucked-up (from my perspective) sexual thrill-seekers.